Dirty Dirty Kingslayers

Last night was raid night, second for me and first for hubby.  We went into ICC 25 man, did professor putricide on hard mode, and yep, it’s bloody hard, however we got him to approx 43% so it was almost there, we ended up just doing him in normal mode.  Hubby was doing some decent DPS for someone with apparently such bad gear, I just sucked – I could not get it happening last night. Was one of those nights that nothing I was doing was working.  I was always in the wrong spot and having to move etc, so I was basically sitting on like 5k dps most of the night, I mean it went up – I saw myself hitting 10k at one point, was just deflating.

But hey I am getting higher DPS than I ever did, so it is good.  They are an oddball bunch of people to be honest, but so far they have been nice to the newbies, vicious on vents occasionally and a bit of a laugh, all in all what I expected from a guild knocking off progression like this.

Anyway I was pushing through the pain, was not going to let that get me down, and we went and killed Arthas 😀  yup, I saw him die!!  I feel dirty however that I wasn’t with my old guild to do it.  I wish there was some way I could transplant the kill into their heads for them to understand it isn’t hard once you can see it in action…

So I am now Kingslayer!!

I think ICC is fast becoming one of my favourite instances, I enjoy a fair few of the fights in there and killing Arthas does feel very epic 🙂

Settling in…..maybe?

So new guild, all new toons and new faction, so many things, I have run out of money, no surprise there, but I am on annual leave all this coming week, so I will be doing as many dailies as possible on all 3 of my level 80’s (not just dailies but opening up quest areas as well like Icecrown etc) for the cash.  My warrior is on another server still, but money does move servers you know :d hehe

I think this week is going to be hell boring doing it, but it should set me up nicely financially.  I am also going to spend the week attempting to play the AH to my benefit, after all I now have a toon that can disenchant stuff, so that will be a bonus money maker, if other people don’t beat me too it.

I am slowly settling in, I feel awkard and unsure of myself, which I am sure many people feel when they head off and start something new.  I feel very relived that I log onto the game and the couple of sparse whispers I get are about people and not guild issues, that makes for an enjoyable play time.  And if we don’t respond to each other straight away there is no follow up hounding…it is nice 😀

My bear transferred his level 80 hunter over, so we could run heroics together occasionally etc, which is cool, we did one this morning, hopefully will catch him again tomorrow.

Hubby got into the same guild as me as a raider, I am happy, as we were not sure he would. His gear is slightly less than mine due to his old shiftwork – thank god he doesn’t do that anymore (yes it has only been a week but it is bloody nice knowing he doesn’t have to work until 10pm), he would raid only say 40% of the raids we had, even less probably. But they looked past that, and we are now in the same boat – fighting for a raid spot and on a more casual basis until someone drops off…and only then if we prove we can play.  So it may not be the perfect position to be in, but as I said to hubby a new xpac always brings changes, AND we are with the guild we have been wanting to be in for almost 2 years.  So what if we don’t get to run every single night in their progression runs, they have plenty of other runs happening all the time, we just have to get in on one of those.

All in all, I think it will be ok providing I pass my trial period, I will just try and get to know the people and make friends where I can.

I just re-read this post and it really was a post about nothing 🙂 But I guess I just wanted to get the thoughts out of my head and onto “paper”.

That is not what I expected :)

So, to cut a long story short,  I got into a raiding guild on Caelestrasz….back to the fail server, but with a guild that has me as nervous as a school girl behind the bleachers….do they even have bleachers anymore?..more to the point do school girls even get nervous anymore ?? Especially since they are out there having babies at 10 and 11, they are barely school girls…

Anyway I digress.  So i moved my mage last night and whispered an officer, the last time I even dreamt of whisping anyone in this guild I was probably actually dreaming…

The end of an era

So,  after some decisions and depression, I have left my guild.  I really shouldn’t call it my guild, it hasn’t been mine for a few weeks.

I am switching horde!!!  GO TROLLS ya mon!!  Not sure I can RP a troll, I shall have to change my story so far.

Anyway it was not an easy decision as I will miss people dearly, but I have tried for the last couple of weeks to ignore what happened, but I have this paranoia that I am just an annoyance in the guild now.  It is probably not the case but when I am second guessing everything including myself it is not the environment I think I should stay in.

Everyone was gracious with my departing post and I spent what small time I had fixing my mail to switch my characters. 

The extended maintenance last night was a nightmare, I logged on got what I needed to get done complete, but then I got booted off and couldn’t get back on….I ended up just going to bed after that, but was hell frustrating as I wanted to say goodbye to some guildies….thankfully I have their emails and I will just continually harrass them from here on.

So onto new adventures, new cities and a new mount collection, I only levelled one toon through the horde side, so this will be a new thing for me – trying to remember what is where etc.  This is the first time in 3 years that I have not been the GL of a raiding guild, I don’t know how I am going to cope with that, but let’s give it a shot.

So goodbye alliance, good bye my friends in MA and good bye to all the friends I have made on Dath. 

Catch you on the flip side!

Sindragosa still won’t die

I think I have it figured out, you can’t actually kill Sindy can you? It’s all a big joke, she is immortal or indestructible or something?

There are no guilds that have actually killed her, it is all a big play by Blizzard to make people think she HAS been killed!! All the blogs I have been reading are like Blizz employees bullshitting!!

Yeah well I am allowed to dream right 😀 eheheh

We spent all night wiping on her again, we were getting her to below 10% for I would say half the shots we had, but we just kept losing it in phase 3. People just seem unable to realise they are going to be tombed and then bam 5 people cop it…There must be a better way. We keep having the shitty luck of 2 healers getting done in quick succession, so one is just coming out whilst another is getting tombed.

Anyway we just could not get it happening. The last attempt we had we did much better in controlling the fight ie debuff resetting and people running out when being tombed etc, but we were just ran out of time to try again.

Perhaps Monday will be the night we get it happening….perhaps Monday….

So close on Sindragosa…

You know when you have one of those dreams and you feel like you are stuck in jelly or underwater where you are moving slowly and something big horrible and ugly is chasing you….that was tonight for me….

We got Sindy to 8% on one attempt and quite a few below 15%, but it was like we could see the problem as it was happening, but there was nothing you could do about it.

Just little things like people not realising they were the tomb in the third phase, or we just didn’t move quick enough etc.

It was a bloody good night of work on her though considering how low we got her, it was well worth the effort, as we had never really seen phase 3 for more than the second tomb.

Tomorrow I think we may have her number…my fingers are crossed, so are my toes and I may even plait my hair just to make sure 😀 heeheh

Time to let it go

Yup, this will be my last post about stepping down, it has been 2 days and so far only my closest friends have said anything, a pool of people smaller in numbers than one hand of fingers.

Yes I am being very self centered, and perhaps idealistic, in hoping that my guild mates would say something, anything to show their support or dissent at the decision.

This leads me to be torn as to the motives behind the lack of chatter, and as I have been reminded so vehemently the last couple of days “ASS / U / ME” is the mother of all cock ups. So I am not even going to go into my theories suffice it to say I am feeling lost in the guild as though I should not be there.

I don’t know where I stand with anyone in the guild now and I think that scares me more than anything else. The last three years I have spent knowing my place and knowing where I fit in, now I am not sure if I am even supposed to be stay in the guild after the way it all went down?

Do guild leaders stay in the guild they step down from if they do it for negative reasons and not just getting too busy in real life reasons? Have others felt this sense of dismemberment from the people?

I am too scared to message people, as I don’t know who are the ones who dislike me, I have had no one actually talk to me since Sunday, and so I am not sure what to do, i didn’t really speak on vents last night or in raid very much as I had no idea what to say. I am second guessing everything about me even being there, do people even give a crap if I am there or not? Would they prefer I wasn’t? Do they have me on mute on vents – which would explain why people sometimes never answer me?

Yeah, defiantely time to let it go. I won’t be posting about this again as there is now nothing to say, i will see how things go once everything has settled down. Maybe I am just being ultra paranoid – or maybe I am right on the money, either way a few weeks from now I will have a better idea…I hope.

behind the curtain..

So since I am no longer beholden to my guild in the sense of protecting their identities as their Guild leader, i am going to throw caution to the wind and I am going to update all my details so you can look up my toons and check me out 🙂 hehehe

So I am in the process of updating my toon and personal pages with all the relevant details so you guys can crituque my crappy toons and tell me how much i suck 🙂 LOL

Feel free to drop past and say hello if you see me running around 🙂

Extrapolation

So to expand on my previous post, I have stepped down as guild leader for my guild and requested I be treated as a raiding member of the guild.

I had believed, stupidly, it would seem that the guild was doing really well, that we were all getting along and were being mates. How wrong was I?

If people want to bitch about their guild leader, it is perhaps time you find another guild, or god forbid you talk to them about your concerns.

I cannot believe that people I considered friends have been backstabbing but that is the story, so I will not continue to put myself in the position to cop a flogging.

I am so hurt that I have found out, perhaps remaining oblivious would be better, I have not yet decided.

My future with the guild is undecided as I am currently far too clouded by betrayal and hurt to think all that cleat, so before doing anything too rash I will just sit back, raid and not do anything that will jeopardize my raiding position in the guild. After all I have the same shot at being booted now 🙂

I spent most of yesterday crying about this entire thing so I am pretty sure stepping down is the best thing I could have done, I now just have to work out who my friends actually are and how much crap was spun to the other officers and therefore to me….Chinese fucking whispers like fucking 2 year old little tards…..

Too depressed at the moment, may not be posting for a while….

We are the lucky ones

Last night before raid I was trolling a few blogs as I always do, and i noticed a theme, so many people are having trouble getting people to log on for raids because Cataclysm is coming….now I agree, it is coming – at some point, in the future, but as for when? Hell we have only just been thrown the beta opt in and from past experience, that will take at least a few months, let’s say ballpark 3….then add 2 months for the release date and actual launch etc.

So that is still a very long time to be not raiding or doing anything in game except standing around twiddling thumbs? I plan to cut raiding off once we have a confirmed release date AND after we have killed the Lich King a couple of times. I am pretty sure most of the guild would be ok with that, most of my guild though, want to see the Lich King Dead, so we are all pretty motivated to do that 😀

I have so much to do once an announcement has been made about release, I have to consider, once again what I want from the game, how to implement that with the guild and not lose people 😀 , I have to re-do the website – it is in need of a major overhaul, and the guild needs a major overhaul, and I need to toughen up as a guild leader if we stay together as a guild and move forward. The guild as it currently is, is almost in a state of perfection, yes we have shitty nights, and yes we grumble and grizzle, but we have the best group of players right now, better even than the players we had back in SSC/TK days….This group has the potential to do so much and move through content so quickly….everyone single person picks up strats so damn fast, we spend a couple of shots wiping, then you can tell when people understand the fight….I know we could be awesome…..however I digress….massive tangent there….

I would be heartbroken if we were like those other guilds struggling to get raids happening, yeah this week has been slow for us, but we have 5 people down, out of a 14 man raider base, shit happens really, and from next week everyone will be back on board anyway. We really are the lucky ones that we have found 13 other people who are just as motivated and enjoy raiding as much as each other.

I do love my guildies and I am so glad we have worked so hard to get this group to where it is. Hopefully being that we are coming into a new expansion with a great group, we won’t lose anyone and be behind the eightball. It is my fault really – every time new content comes out I move or change the guild and it sets us back, this time I am hoping everyone will stay together and we will be able to level quickly and get back into raiding really fast 😀